The end of the independence

OMG! My solitude is officially gonna get over tomorrow! 

Let's just say that in these past two weeks I had a little time to relax and now I have to strees a month again. I hope it's enough if I say that I have to live together with a really annoying person again. I hate this. I love when I'm on my own, just do whatever I want, and just chilling in my own place. But my place is not gonna be just my place for an another month again. When I got to know it a week earlier I lost all my cheerfulness. And now I'm spending my last lonely night, and then I have to say goodbye to all of it. I hope it turns out good and somehow it's not gonna be a month. 

And let me add that today I could go out with a bunch of, hilariously funny and lovely friends to watch a movie, and eat lunch together somewhere, and just allow myself to have a tortuous afternoon, after the eternal studying, but my parents didn't give me money! My mom told me that she was spending on me a lot this month, which is really-really true, and she asked me to try to practise the abandonment. So I didn't go, and when I spoke with Merci an hour ago she said that it's even better that I didn't spend on the movie ticket because the movie (The book of Eli) was a big crap, and they didn't enjoy a minute of it. And she said that somehow they weren't in their laughing mood, and instead of the habitual whinnying, they were just walking side by side without a word. That not that good, cause I think everyone was expecting a really good afternoon. Well, everyone has a bad day. 

So today I went out with my mom to the mall, where I didn't buy anything, but I wanted to. But we were both tired, and my legs were hurting because of the high heels, and I just got angry in the tiniest things. Maybe today is not the best for anyone. Right now I'm thinking about to start an essay, which I have to finish for Tuesday. So I think I'm going to write it, and then some TV or something. You know, enjoying the last hours of my independet life. 

XOXO, LD

A wonderful day with my lovely friends

Well, hello again! Forgetting the fact that I had no appetite yesterday to go to the island, we had a really great girls day! I mean it was a REALLY kind of girls day....like laughing all the time, while we go, the sun is shining and WARM!!! for the very first time this year...actually we had around 15-20 celsius here, and for the very first time this year I could take off my winter jacket outside. I was walking in that beautiful place in a pulover, the sun was warm, the birds were tweeting....that was a perfect spring day. 

At first we had to go by a lot of vehicles to get there, and we all actually met with our perfect guy at the metro station. Me and Merci never like the same guys, expect HIM, but now we were just melting....He was really hot. Back to the theme....When we arrived there we had to find that gravestone, but it was really difficult, cause there were a bunch of statues and things like that around everywhere. But then we found it and we met two guys who were actually drunk. They were climbing in the debris of the sometime convent. But we weren't make a big deal about that, we took some pictures (cause that was all we needed to the project from the island) and we made our way to a McDonald's. Casue we were starving, but we had to walk like half hour to reach the restaurant, and let me add that I was in high heels....so it wasn't that comfortable, as I expact it. A lot of running people were there in that beautiful day, and once when a girl was running towards me I just fell in love with her T-shirt. So when she passed me, I turned around to see it from behind too, and I saw the two guys from the gravestone. I thought that they were just walking there, but after a while when we were about to arrive to the restaurant, they were still behind us, and they were actually almost running to reach us, then we finally entered at Mcdonald's and we just calmed down. That was kinda scary. But then we talked for almost an hour, and it was really great. 

Here is a funny sidestory....When we were about to go home, we saw a store window, with a huge sale, and we just realised that the shirts were oly around a dollar, and the scarfs too. We were about to in, when a nice, old lady told us that it is a dry goods store. It was hilarious. I think around fifty people could walk and hear us in that minute and I think they all thought that we are not normal. 

So it was a really-really good day. Now I'm going cause I have to do some errands.

XOXO, LD

Unnecessary things to do

Gosh! February is almost over! How times passes....:S It seems like that the first day of January was yesterday, but not....

Today! Wow! I have a lot of things to tell! First of all, I have been learning for a huge "exam" for literature, since the second week of February, and today was the big day. I have to say that I had thousands of butterflies in my stomach all day long, and I even asked my mom to write me a justification for PE cause I wanted to learn while the others were having volleyball....(I hate that sport the most), so I was learning when Merci came up with the idea that we can report to the teacher when we didn't learn something. I didn't really wanted to do it, but during these big exams I forget everything when I have to say something. So we reported it to the teacher but she didn't accept it, because it was an announced exam! So I have to say that I was really nervous, Let's say that I haven't been that nervous for a long time. When she was about to ask me, she just went trough me, and she didn't call me. I couldn't believe in my luck....everyone was teasing me in the end of the class, cause I didn't have to do anything while they were suffering. :) 

I don't why did this happen, but I was really happy...then maybe someone thought that this luck was enough for the day, cause when we arrived to the last lesson, which was physics, which I hate the most, and which I don't know, the teacher thought for a moment and she asked a guy to say a number. He said 14 and the teacher said 1 so the number was 15. I had no idea what was she talking about, but when she asked me to go to the board, and she told me that she is asking me about the previous theme, we learnt, I couldn't even think about anything. (She asked me cause I'm the 15th in the checklist) It's obvious that I didn't learn a word yesterday cause I was learning other things....So in the end my mark turned out to a C and I was really thankful....:( I know it's a really good mark, but OMG in the beggining I was about to get an E, cause I couldn't sy anything. But somehow I just made it to a C.....gosh....And the best is that....(drumbeat) tomorrow physics exam! :D That teacher is crazy! And the math...I don't even know what the teacher is talking about! I mean I have double lessons, cause I don't undestand it, and this is still not enough to get it. Maybe there's something wrong with me....but I don't think so, cause not I'm the only one who don't know it. 

And on Thursday I have to go to the Margaret Island wih a bunch of my friends because we have to do a project for school, and it's really far away. We need and hour or more just to get there. Then we have to find a gravestone, and a couple of more things. :S

Now, I'm going to learn and relax a little bit! 

XOXO, LD

A couple days of solitude

So here I am again! I know that I'm a slacker, I mean I'm not posting so much recently. And there are many reasons....

1. I'm playing farmville all the time since last friday, and I can't go away whenever I start it. I'm obsessed with this game, and this is all of my friends fault, who made me do this game. They were all talking about it effusively at school, and they told me that I HAVE TO try it out. So I made a little farm last friday and now I'm in the 16th level. When I got home from school I always find myself in front of the computer which is not too good.

2.I'm super, hyper tired this week, cause I had to get up at 6 all the time, and today I almost had to kick myself out of the bed, and I had to collect a lot of power not to turn off my alarm and go back to sleep. It was terrible. I don't even know who was that stupid, cruel person who set this whole thing around the education. Waking up at 6....Pfffff. And I was alone for two days, cause Merci didn't come to school....she was ill. It was so bad, going to school alone. I hate walking alone.....and we are each other's habit. I found it today. Actually if we are walking alone we are missing each other. We've been walking to school together for 6 years now. Of course she is the person who I feel the most comfortable with. We can share everything, we are really like sisters. And of course I was tired today, and when I'm tired I can get mad because of a bad word. So today I wasn't nice to her, but she came to school.....

3. All I want to do, in each second of the day is talking to HIM! I can not think about anything else. And of course I am talking with him right now, but he is with his friend and he is not as communicative as he used to be, which is sad cause that was moment that I've been waiting for today. But who does not respect the small one does not deserve the big one, right? :D

So my friday is not that eventful.....again. But tomorrow my dad's birthday party is coming, and I hope that we are going to spinning too. Actually I don't like these big family events, cause we have a lot of loud relatives, but I think I'm gonna make it. I also have to learn a lot for Tuesday, and I don't really know anything. 

So that's for my weekend, I'll try to make myself do an another post in these days. 

XOXO, LD

Ps.: I have a few colors of the Nicole by OPI nailpolishes. I haven't heard about them before, but I got them from my mom. I got 4 colors. I don't know....I used a metal one now, and it's gorgeous. If you heard anything about tha please let me know!

Choosing beetwen Love and Friendship

I am so sorry! I know that I had gone, but there is a serious, and wasn't-so-unexpected problem between me and Merci! I think we actually like the exact same guy....And that's not even enough, because he is our classmate. I won't say his name, but OMG! I know that someday this is going to overhaul us. We didn't had a guy to fight on before, cause we didn't met that perfectly cute guy, but now I don't even know what I feel. I think I might be.....scared. But I tell you excatly what had happened! I tell you the story....

There is that framville game, and that was what brought us together. Me, Merci, and "he" were online all the time this weekend, and Merci started talking with him. You know I didn't care much, when she mentioned, but after a time I was really angry, cause she couldn't stop talking about the fun, they had, and it was really exasperating hear the same all the time. Then he wrote to me on facebook and we started chatting as well, but only a few sentences. I thought that he is cool, but that was all. But then.....yesterday Merci didn't have internet, so she asked me to do something in her farm. So I went to facebook, and first logged in as myself, to make my farm done fisrt. And then I saw that he was in level 13 (he was teasing me that he'll pass me) and I wrote to him, that how he dared! :) (As a joke) And from that moment we talked from 6pm to 10pm. We couldn't stop laughing, and I had a funny evening like that a really-really long time ago! Really! I was laughning uncontrollably for four hours. We actually talked about everything. From school to even some hairs....:D So there was everything....And slowly we talked to each other like we have known each other for years. Then he said that I am a very bouncing girl, and that felt so good. That was the first thing which scared me....and then when we said our not-so-wanted goodbyes, he called me in a really cute name! It's hungarian and I can't translate it, but it was really sweet (hajnal virágszál)! In the evening I was thinking about him, and this is an another frightening thing. Then in the morning I woke up really happily, that I'll met him, but when I met Merci, everything turned bad! 

When I just mentioned her that I talked to him, she literally foze down for a moment, but then she made herself to show a miserably fake smile. I didn't really make it a big deal, I thought that she wanted to talk to him as well. As we made our way to the school, I told her that we had a really big fun, and she started to ask questions about us. Like how much we talked, or was it really good or not, and things like that. When I told her that we talked 4 hours, she fulminated out of herself and told me to disabe him, and don't talk to him or if he writes me, don't answer. I was really indignant! It's okay that she is my best friend, but she can't tell me what to do. I told her that I won't disable him, cause I don't want to, and I am not a jerk. She just didn't seem to forget it, but the english class started. And there I realised that she was crying. I immediately got it! She likes the guy. And what was even worse....I realised that I like him too. When I asked her what's wrong, she didn't speak to me, but then she laid on my shoulder and she said that she doesn't want to love him. And I felt the same. Cause to be honest he is the guy who I could fall in love with. For the rest of the day we didn't mentioned him, but I was always searching for his look. Actually I was thinking about him half of my day...

But somehow we all went to the cafeteria together. Gosh! He just wanted to talk me, I saw it! He actually started talking to ME! But I saw Merci standing next to me, and I knew that she'll hate me if I just start chat with him so I only responsed with a slight smile. He didn't even talked to me again, and he seemed sad. So, OMG! Am I the one who imagine things? Or what is going on here?!!! 

When we reached Merci's house, she told me again not to speak to him. I was really tired because of that and other school things, so I really turned rusty. Then she finally said that Ok, talk to him I don't really care, but call me if you guys talk. 

Then we talked about him a bit before I headed home. She asked me if I like him or not....And I had to lie!!! OMG! How she looked at me...I told her I only love him as a friend. So right now I don't know what to do, and I don't know how I feel, and I don't know if Ishould talk to him or not?! Advices, please?!

XOXO, LD