An inexplicable, and strange feeling

This is ridiculous what had happened to me today!  

Let's just mention that I have an excuse to my behavior, because it's Friday, which is the last working day of the week, and it means, that I woke up super early for five days, and on the fifth, I feel  like a rag. That's how happened this with me today.

Merci asked me sleep at her place because her mother gets home really late, and his father is out of town, so she didn't want to be alone. I wasn't that sure, but I said yes, and we also set that we are going to shopping this afternoon, because we had to buy presents, which we didn't find at least, but we ate at KFC and we bought books. Actually we had a really great time together, but when we were going home I already felt that I am really-really tired. When you're eyes closing by themselfves, and you just don't notice anything around you. Well that was with me. Then when I got home, I had to collect all of my energy to have a shower, and make my way to Merci's place. And there is where the problem begins. 

I just entered the house, and some strange, but not really unknown feeling had gone through me. I had that huge panic, and all I wanted was to go home. I have no idea what happened to me that moment, but then I just acted really weird. Merci could not make a simple converstation with me, and whenever she asked me what's the problem, I just said that I'm tired! But there was something else too! I know. I felt it! Something really bad in my stomach. I mean a bad feeling. I almost cry. OMG! I was like a five years old girl, who wants to go home, or wants an ice cream really badly. I knew that I have to go home, cause if I'm not I'm gonna do something. Then I just told her that I hope she won't be mad at me, bu I think I'll go home, and stuffs like that! She said that nothing happened, but I know that she wasn't happy. I know her well enough.

Well I am at home right now, and I feel way better. I am extremely tired, but happy to be at home, in my own room, my own bed and I'm about to start the new book I bought. Still to this moment I don't know what happened to me, and I feel really ashamed because I didn't want to hurt Merci's feelings that much, but to be honest, in that moment mines were much more important.

XOXO, LD

In a Bettylicous mood

OMG! Why the hell I have to bare this? I can't believe! I'm gonna explode of the angriness. I can't tell you how much I'm mad at my sister right now! Jesus! She's been at the bathroom for an hour now, and I told her to hurry like a million times, cause I need to learn, but as it seems she didn't really care about me.

So now after an another hour, I had showered, washed my hair, and stuffs like that, but really I was mad at her. Which is the even funnier, today I went to a hypermarket with my mom, cause I was looking for south park plush figures, for my sister's birthday. I couldn't find any, and then I thought that I'll go to an another toy store or someting, when we passed a present store, and I saw the towels, which you can order with your own text on it. I did make one for Merci wth the text "Merci, the best friend" and it was a huge success with her, so I ordered an another one, with "The best sister". But maybe a bad luck follows me, cause I wanted the towel to be purple and the text yellow, but the only I could chose were bad colors, so I picked a darker pink, with and even darker pink text, but I think it will be ok. I wanted the purple and yellow because those are my sisters favourite. And the other that the towel will be ready next Thursday which is her bday! So before the whole present, and cake thing I have to rush to the store and take it, then buy a paperbag or something. And I still have to buy her something, just I don't know what. I was thinking about that I should still looking for those south park toys. She loves that something...

And gosh! I just fell in love with Betty boop! I want sheets, exercise book cases, pillows...everything which has Betty Boop in it. Actually there isn't anything more I could write about, so I think I'm gonna go to sleep! 

XOXO LD

A new addiction

First of all I want to wish a really beautiful women's day to all of you girls! I have nothing interesting to do otherwise I wouldn't sit here with a string of chocolate, so I hope you'll enjoy it better. I don't even have a boyfriend to celebrate with. What a wretch I am! :)

To be honest I don't feel very well right now, I don't know what happened, I'm just freezing in a moment and in the next I am hot. And my stomach is hurting too, cause I think I ate too much, because when I got home from school I was starving, and I just ate everything in my way. So you can imagine. 

So yesterday.....well, I don't even know where to start....the first spinning wasn't that hard as I expected, but it was way enough to feel extremely tired, but after we went to the gym and I ran for like 30 minutes, then we went to that simple body training, and after 20 minutes we left the class, because the only thing we did was for the legs, and they were already hurting after spinning, so I think it was fear. Then it was around 2, and we decided to go home, and so we did.

When I got home my sister, who was planned to go to the gym at 5 to reach the kangoo, was really suprised, and she just made me somehow to go back. But I didn't want to go without Merci, so I called her, and she said that she won't come back and things like that, but then I just made her to come with us. So let me add that this was the very first time that I have ever had a kangoo jumps shoe on my feet, and I barely could stand. But the first problem was that we didn't know that we should have sneakers on or not when we go out of the changing room...:D But forgetting these little balks I fell in love with this sport. I just LOVE the whole feeling, when everybody is jumping around, the music, which is really great, is really loud, and everyone is screaming. I think I found my perfect excercise. I said that spinning is goos, but I always felt that something is missing, when I'm cycling. Well I think I found out. I was missing this crazy feeling. OMG! It was really good. 

Now I have a muscle strain in my legs, my arms., and even in my stomach. 

XOXO, LD

The sunshine in my life

Hey guys!  

So my mood is actually the best since this certain problem happened here. I am finally ALONE, just by myself cause SHE is working and later she is going out with her almost-boyfriend. So I hope that she'll get home really late, and we won't see each other just in the morning. 

The other reason for my happiness, is the sunshine. It's ok that here is around 5 celsius, and I'm still freezing as I sit here, but the sunshine is way enough for now. And of course right now I'm talking with HIM, and he always gives me the best mood, with his charm, provision, and gentleness. Some day a girl would really-really love him. And I think in a point I'll be jealous. Not because I love him, just because I think every girl deserves a guy like him, but not all of us is that lucky. Well, I hope that girl will be really sweet, and caring. I'll commend it to her!!!! Watch out honey, I'll be there! :D

I don't think I mentioned before that...ok, I think you know these traditions but I explain it. Before we finish school, at June, we have a 4 days long holiday with the class. Each class can go wherever they want to go. Well, we are going to lake Balaton, to have a 4 days long cycling-tour. Me and Merci couldn't be more joyful, but the other part of the class are revolting. I don't know. I think it will be one of the best parts of the summer, and I think that it won't be hard. Otherwise it's an elemental truth that biking is not hard. Just spinnig but that's a whole other theme. If we can spin the pedal without stopping for 60 minutes I think I'll be able to do this. And I don't think that a 16 years old have to do spinning to be able to do a little biking around a beautiful lake.

So I think it was yesterday when we were talking with Stacy (my teacher and my friend as well) and you know that we haven't seen her boyfriend before. Ever!! And she just spilled out that she is bringing him too, to the holiday. OMG! My mouth dropped and we looked at each other with Merci, which of course was caught by Stacy. She just laughed at us, but we are actually really corious, to meet him! I never expected that I'll ever gonna see him. Obviously, I can't wait till June. 

And OMG! I just figured it out yesterday, that I have only 3 months left from school, which is absolutely weird. I mean we just started it, I remember when I wrote down how much I hate that I have to wear black and white on the very first day. And now we have only 3 months left. YAY! I can't wait until summertime! Beaches, sunhine, free time, and sleeping is all about summer, and way more. The best time of the year! And me and my sisters also planning to go somewhere together. Just the three of us. It would be loads of fun! 

Last but not least! Tomorrow is gonna be a really hard day for me. I wake up at around 7.30 and I'm heading straight to the gym, because we have full-day long, free tickets to all of the trainings, because Monday is woman's day. We are going to have a 90 mitutes long spinning, then an hour break, then a simple body training, then an another 60 minutes long spinning, which I'm not sure to go, and the last is a Kangoo jumps at 6 to 7. At the breaks we are going to work out at the gym I think. So  all I can say is that we'll die! :D 

XOXO, LD

Gonna get a gun and shoot myself....

Hi everyone!

I'm greeting every single person in this wonderful, shiny day which means the beggining of the spring. I'm sooo happy, but I heard that the next week is going to snowing, so I'm a bit sad, but right now it's March, which is pretty good. Since I have my name day this month, on the 27th, and we have my sister's bday party on the 17th it's gonna be a really good month. I mean I don't really have any plans or something, but I hope that my name day will be a really warm day, with a lots of sunhine. I mean the 27th day of March was always sunny and warm as I can remember. We weren't living here when I was a child, and I can remember that the sun was always shining trough the window. So back there...nowadays I don't see these days that happy and cloudless. But let's hope this year will bring me something new. 

Also as I mentioned, my sister turning 24 this month which is really scary. I mean I got stucked when she was 20. I can't believe it....She's planning the moving, and stuffs like that, which is scary too....I never really thought about this before, and this is just freaking me out. Like never really see my sister only in the weekends like twice in a month?! Gosh!

And the other thing! I'm extremely depressed these days, and of course the reason is that PERSON! I told you before in the last post, and I don't really want to say anything, just that SHE makes my life impossible. I don't really know how I'll survive this. We only live together for 3 days but I almost killed myself a few times. Gosh, and it seems that she's not staying a month....it seems like she stays 2!!!!!!! What the hell I'll do? I'm really in a huge depression! I don't have a place where I can be on my own, and this is killing me. I need to be alone at home. I mean when I want to be with someboby I go to that person's room, but not now as it seems. The main thing which makes me really mad, is that she doesn't get that I have to go to school really early, and I have to go to sleep at 10 at least. But no, she doesn't go to school of course, so she is in front of the computer all evening and banging the keyboard which hurts my ears. And the one thing which is even worse, she is talkig to her friends, but they were together all day long. I'm gonna go crazy, and I don't know what should I do, to survive this month, then she'll go home a little bit, for a couple days, but then she is gonna get back again! I'm gonna bet sick If I'm gonna do this the whole month. Oh and the other thing, I almost have to fight to get here....It's ridiculous!!

Ok, I don't wanna look like that I'm just complaining here, but Merci is stupid nowadays too. Right now she is talking to an another girlfriend of our, and she doesn't tell me what's the problem, just to that girl! That's so sweet from her! :S I'm so mad at her these times. 

XOXO, LD