The eternal bootlicker

This is the third day I've been sitting next to HIM and HE makes my life impossible, even if he's not knowing this.

I mean his attitude is normal for him, I think, but for me he is the biggest jerk far away I have ever met in my entire life. Some poeple would say that "You should be forbearing with him, cause for a long time he was in a bad company!" or something like that, but NO. This isn't about the bad company. This is all about upbringing. I never saw my parents, even my sisters to be that unpolite, under the IQ's -worst-level, jerks.

Yesterday we were writing an exam, and I think he was afraid of asking anything from me, cause of my would-like-to-kill-you look which is in my face all the time when he is near me. Even Merci made a remark that she never saw a disgust like that in my face before. So I didn't help him at all, I mean, come on! Why would I? I was even covering the paper, just to hide the answers away from him, but after a little while when I was ready, and I couldn't pretend that I'm writing anymore, I left the paper in the desk, and I turned backwards to my friends. And this was the minute when he almost shouted that "Ah! That's what I've been waiting for!" and I would like to kill him at that moment. Of course he got an A mark on the next day, as me.

Then today our physics teacher was giving us the marks for the first semester, which actually ended today. So when he was the one, who got his mark, he just stood up, and walked to the teacher's desk, of course he crawled across me, but who cares about me, when he is about to get his D! Really! So when I was about to get my mark, he was just standind in my lookout. I couldn't see the teacher but I heard that she was talking to me, and he saw that I couldn't see her, but despite he didn't get out of my view. Eventually the teacher asked him to sit down. I didn't say a word. Just now: ASSHOLE!

But I don't want to talk about him all day long, so I'm getting into something new.

Today we didn't do anything at school. We weren't learning cause the half of the class didn't come to school because in here the people who are working in the transport were striking. So yeah! For like two hours me and four of my girlfriends, including Merci, were talking about the guys. Of course the girls were talking about how they met, and the first kiss, you know. But it was so bad that right now I don't have a boyfriend, and they were telling sooooo-sooooo cute things. I want to meet someone. To feel happy, and out-of-myself. I wish that it's come true!

XOXO, LD

The patch which saved my confidence

Oh my gosh! I can't bealieve what that herpes patch did. That huge bulge is only a little red spot now on my mouth. And I used it for only two days. Awesome. I feel sooooo happy right now.

So I was happy in the morning too, and I went shopping with my mom. I know, I know! But really I didn't want to buy anything. She wanted to buy herself boots, and a coat, but we just went next to a promod boutique with 50% off sale. I couldn't just walk away!!!! Come on I have feelings, and I'm a girl. For my excuse I ONLY bought a Shirt. In a 50% off sale!!! I bought that red one. Actually I don't like the model, and it looks bad in her, but actually it's really gorgeous. Believe me! If you live in Europe you can buy it here. Or if you live somwhere else you can choose it here. But my mom bought everything she wanted too, so that's good. Oh, I almost forget! I heard a lot of things about the lush products, and I always wanted to try them out, but I wasn't sure that we a have a store in Hungary. But I just found one! I almost fainted. I didn't buy anything cause I wanted to look around in the net, and get to know a little more what's that lush really is. But they tottaly bought me! I'm going to buy something this month just to try it out. I was thinking about the Think pink bath bomb, and the Creamy candy bubble bar or maybe the comforter bubble bar! HELP ME! Tell me what's the best thing to buy, what's your favourite! I can't choose!

When we were about to go home, and we went up to the parking lot, we met with my form master. I just saw a pink something coming towards me, and then I saw that it's a pink person waving, and then I saw the blonde hair and I got explanation for everything. :D I love her. So we just talked a few words, and we all went to our seperate ways.

And I'm so in trouble! Merci's birthday is coming so fast. It's on the 6th of February. She is turning 16. I don't know what to buy her. When I entered the lush store and saw those little, wrapped gifts I immedaitely thought about her, cause she's in love with bathing. But I think she just never heard about lush, and she would think that I bought something horrible to her, and she would never use it. I mean that's what I'm afraid of. So help me again! What to buy her!!!?? Or should I buy her lush gifts, and tell her everything about lush?!! HELP!!!!!!!!

XOXO, LD

My life's debaucher

It could be two things. Actually one of them is not a thing. It is a person. But let's just start at the begginig!

You don't know that about me, and I really didn't want to tell it, but I have a problem which always comes back to my mouth. It is herpes. I have it a few times in a year, and I have no idea why it's comes out. Whenever I have that stupid scratchy feeling and I feel that my mouth is a bit hotter than in any other parts, I know that it will be a herpes. And it's gonna be huge. So at these times, I just don't want to go anywhere, I'm hiding away from even my family, so how are they expecting me to go to school?

The point is that today when I woke up I felt that my mouth is drawing. I immediately know what's going on, and I lost my cheerfulness for all of my life. Really. I mean I know that I can be happy if that's my biggest hygiene problem, when millions of people have the worst disease, like my dad, but I feel like I'm disgusting. So I went to school today, I don't know how I made myself but I did, and going tomorrow too, but I asked my mom to buy me those bandages for herpes. I don't know how it will work but I heard goog things about that. But still, tomorrow I have to go to school, and OMG, she wlill buy it only tomorrow  evening! I just hate hiding away from people while we have a conversation. I'm the person who hates when somebody looks away instead of looking at your eyes during talking. So I feel really-really bad, and everybody who had herpes before really knows what I'm talking about.

And the other thing. I mentioned the seat order, and of course I have to sit next to that guy who I hate the most. I mentioned him before in many entries cause I was so mad at him. So right night, when  I have herpes and I feel ugly, I have to sit next to that jerk. too This week is not the best for me. And Merci just called me ,and she always wants me to go to spinning, but she just picked the best time to call me. So we were shouting with each other, cause she is just unbearable if she wants something. Unbelieveable. And I have to study again. Like all week long! I'm so tired! HELP ME!

XOXO, LD

The sadest love story ever: Dear John

A few weeks ago I was watching videos on youtube, and you must have to know that I'm obsessed with juicystar07's videos. So I was watching one of her videos where she mentioned Nicholas Sparks's Dear John. She said that this is going to be a movie and she wants to read the book first and then see the movie, and I know that Nicholas Sparks wrote the book which became my favorite movies such as like, A walk to remember, The notebook, and etc. I haven't read them but the movies were enough emotinal to cry. I LOVE these movies, and I just did a little research and I found the book. I bought it and I finally finished a Nicholas Sparks book.

Well....what to say. When I put it down my first thought was "WHY?" and I countinued whinig like a five years old little girl. Even on the last page I was hoping that somehow John and Savannah get together again, but I knew that is kinda impossible. When I read the last few words my tears started dropping unstoppable.

"And then I feel as if I'm witnessing a miracle, as ever so slowly she raises her face towards the moon. I watch her drink in the sight, sensing the flood of memories she's unleashed and wanting nothing more than to let her know I'm here. But instead I stay where I am and stare up at the moon as well. And for the briefest instant, it almost feels like we're together again."

This was that part. I was so sad. You have to know that they are looking at the moon cause they promised to each other , when they were in love that in every single full moon they look at it and remember. And Savannah, forgetting that she's married, she's still looking at the full moon, so she has to love John a little too. Of course John always , cause he is so deeply in love with her.So John's character is kinda that guy who I could be if I would be a guy. You won't get me, but I just know it, cause I have some similar features like his. Back to the theme, this book had really tigged me. This is really about true love, findind yourself, confidence and growing up. This was really an experience reading it. I really can just commend it to anybody, even for guys actually. And I wanna say thank you for Blair-juicystar07 for letting me know about that! I love you girl!

"Love should bring joy, it should grant a person peace, but here and not, it was bringing only pain."

XOXO, LD

New year's fames: Hobo, school, parties etc.

This is my first entry this year!

So first of all, happy new year everyone, and I really mean that you'll have one, better than mine seems to be. And Merci's. I mention her here just because her little puppy died. And he was only 4 days with her. RIP Hobo, we hope you are in a better place now.

I'm so in depression. Really. It's snowing. That's not really a big deal, but I have to go to school by my two, freezing foot at 7am is the wosrt thing that ever happened to me. Since I had been at home for 3 weeks and I was lounging in the bed for days, waking up at 6am wasn't a heartmelting thing. I'm so, so jealous for people who are home schooled.

Right now I should learn history because I missed an exam cause of my sickness, and now I have to write it, but it's soooooo much. And I have to study Phisycs too. I hate it. Gosh. I don't know how I will get used to it.

But here's something happy. My New year's party. I had been talking about it for years now, like an obsessed. So when we got to Merci's house we get welcome drinks. Our mouth dropped. It was something really alcoholic, and I get to know that it was 16% alcohol. I know that this isn't that much, but for us it was enough to laugh unstoppable through the night. It was really embarassing. When we went out for dinner we couldn't eat at all, because of the laughing. At around 11pm we were finally acting like normal people, but at midnight her parents came with a bottle of champagne, and of course we had to drink a glass of it, but when her dad get to know that we liked it, he left the bottle with us. :) It was hilarious. By the way we didn't drink it. We had warmth all night long and we couldn't sleep until 4 am. We woke at 8 am of course. Why could we sleep any longer!? I got home at noon and I went to sleep and I only woke up in the evening. So it was a really good night.

And last but not least. I feel like I'm in kindergarden. Our teachers are making a seat order. They will put me next to an idiot, selfish d***. I mean come on! I'm a junior in a high school. The last time when the teachers did that was at 7th grade. So don't get me wrong if yuo'll see a foulmouthed entry on Thursday. I will be rally angry I think. So again, I hope you'll have a muvh better new year that we have. I'm going to study!

XOXO, LD